If I were a boy, would you leave me??

I suffered from insomnia the whole nite.
Studied until 2am,
and my eyes kept on open,
until 4am,
i told myself to sleep,
but useless.
Then i started to cry,
AGAIN.

If I were a boy
even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
and throw on what I wanted and go

Drink beer with the guys
and chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
and I'd never get confronted for it
cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
so they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I’d put myself first
and make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’ll be faithful,
waiting for me to come home, to come home.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake,
think i'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
you thought wrong

For a second i thought i'm gonna murder myself.
Its coming too fast.
If it is happening earlier or later,
i think i'll still be able to cope.
BUT NOT NOW.
Not now when everything of my life is about you,
not now when i am so addicted to you,
not now when i am so in love with you...

If i were a boy,
all these things would not happen,
if i were a boy,
would you leave me??

We both fell in love with the wrong person...
And now i am crying uncontrollably,
AGAIN.
My heart is aching so badly...
so so badly,
its toturing...