Wednesday, September 30, 2009

one last time


宝贝的妈今天回到,
我却还在她家。
很好,
最不希望发生的事情终于发生了。
贝比就骗说我来教她功课,
但我们的疑点却一箩箩。
她妈还上下检查她的内衣、身体,
还说:
“我要晕掉了,不要告诉我你和哥哥一样啊~”
听到这个,
要晕倒的是我,
好不好aunty?

在别人眼里看见他们对我的失望,
我真的很想死。
以往她对我的热情和亲切,
现在换来的是白眼和冷漠。

事情发生,
我反而需要宝贝来安抚我的情绪。
我只能傻傻地想呆子一样,
站在一旁,
看着宝贝独自一人承受一切的怀疑和压力,
我却不知道该做什么。
宝贝想哭,
我却不能打电话安慰她,
她只能默默地忍受这些打击。


对不起。
真的对不起。

突然觉得自己好懦弱,
好没用。

我真的很想挺身而出,
大方地承认,
但后果却是不能负荷的,
所以我退缩了。

现在,
伤心...

如果换做我是男生的话,
上述的问题只要承认就能解决了。
但现在的情况复杂很多,
完全找不到一个有效的解决方案。
前面和后面的途径都是死路一条。

我什么也不能做...

前面的路,
好像越来越难走。

但我承诺的东西我会做到,
直到有哪一天你真的坚持到累了,
告诉我,
我会放你走...

天真、
单纯,
不是活在这个世界上的基本条件。
此刻,
我才明了...

宝贝,
我爱你。
因为我,
你受了很多委屈和痛苦。
对不起。
想哭吗?
请记得我紧紧抱住你的感觉。

我们的爱情,
必须经历许许多多的考验和挫折,
真的很对不起,
你只能一个人默默地面对。

我会尽我所能捍卫我们的爱情。

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

OMG~







CAN YOU BELIEVE????????
NOT A GUY!!!
ITS a SHE!!!
OH MY GOD!!!
How can she be so handsome???
so HANDSOME!!!

Girls

I dunno what happen to baby today,
she is being EMO,
she kept ignoring me for the whole day.
I ask what happen to her,
but she just kept saying ,"Nothing~".

Does anyone know what girls are thinking about??
i am getting more confuse and confuse.
I understand their basic needs,
but WHAT ARE THEY THINKING,
i have no idea at all.
I know i'm physically a girl,
but i have quit to be a girl for a very long time,
so my thinking is kinda out of date...

All of a sudden,
they'll ask you dun leave them,
stay beside them forever,
they love you,
But the next second,
they ignore you,
Then until the end,
they want to break up with you.
Then after break up with you,
they'll feel sad for no reason,
then get back to your side again.

A girl's thinking is very...COMPLEX...
This is what can i say according to my observation and analysis.
YES,
they complicate things.
8/10 T's and guys agree to this.
The only thing i stand with the guys is this point.

Girls.....
WEIRD~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

She maybe having menstruation these few days,
i guess,
so gotta be careful XD.

But still,
this doesn't mean that we dun love them,
its just the difference between the way we handle things.

I LOVE MY BABY

headache

It feels like my head skull is gonna crack open!!!
Its so damn aching!!!

Started to feel bad during chem tutorial,
so i decided to skip chem lecturer and went home.

My God!!!
So freaking irritating!!!

Maybe i dint get enough rest these few days,
went to the Buddha Praying Ceremony on Sunday,
almost stood for the whole day,
because of some rituals,
i dint get to eat dinner.
So just after the ceremony ended,
i SWALLOWED (yes, i swallowed) 3 potato curry bun immediately.
Who knows,
i felt nauseous on the way back home.
I quickly rushed to vomit everything out
just as i stepped into my house.
After that,
i had maggi mee for my supper.
Then the day before which was Saturday,
i kena headache again,
dunno why,
the whole body felt so unenergetic.
Then today!!!
DAMN IT!!!
AGAIN!!!

Friday, September 25, 2009

what a day?

Bad news~
The only subject i worked hard on
din get the results i desire,
nevermind la,
just work harder next time,
cuz i just studied
and never look through the exercises.
Learn from mistakes.

Good news~
I got my baby back,
and i'm sure the WHOLE WORLD knows that.
So happy happy~
Today wanted to go gai gai with baby geh,
go and watch G-force (Hui: "childish~")
but baby cant do it for last minute call,
so the plan has been cancelled.
*sob sob~*
It's been almost 2 weeks din see my baby ady,
missssssssssss her soooooooooooo MUCH!!!!
Then next week her bro will be off from class,
TENG~!!!!!
How am i meet up my baby o???

OMG!
I'm totally in love with my baby now,
can't think of any others now,
even if Megan Fox standing in front of me now,
it would only appear as my baby~~~~
delusional*

Oh yea,
our dear Sher Li changed her hairstyle ady,
walao~
damn yeng one er!!!
When i stepped into P.maths Tutorial yesterday,
i saw her from the back,
and felt surprise when a T came to our class,
then when she turned her head,
i almost fainted,
it was SHER LI~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Xiu Fang said she is the most leng chai in class,
which turned out everybody neglected me... T.T
She should have cut that earlier!!!
talking about her,
she is famous for being the loyal fans of Gillian Chung (twins).
One day,
she disappeared and went missing for the whole day,
and the next day,
she came with a handful of Gillian Chung's stuff,
and photos she taken with Gillian.
Rupa-rupanya,
she went to fetch Gillian at KLIA,
walao~~~~~~~~~~~~
such a crazy fans!

Suppose to have book review today,
but my partner Shao Wen went back to hometown ady...
We are having a book review on ERAGON,
my favourite book of all times,
wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!
I was totally indulged into that series,
my every emotions were controlled by the story plot,
as if i were Eragon himself,
and i even cried
when the time Arya rejected Eragon's love under the Menoa Tree~
Yea,
i'm totally addicted with it!!!
I'm still waiting for the final book to come out,
awww~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
When will it be???

Playing facebook now,
very sien arh~~~~

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

5 years

五年,
你说在这段日子里,
你要成为我唯一的宝贝,
成为我的第一个也是我的最后一个。
其实,
我知道,
你更要阻止我更加沉沦下去。

答应你,
五年,
我会用这五年的时间,
好好地爱你,
照顾你,
呵护你,
疼惜你,
成为我的唯一...

我真的爱你爱到不行了,
没有你的日子我看不到未来。

五年,
我答应你了,
而你,
也不能再反悔了。
听到了吗?
不能再反悔了。

我不想再为你而掉伤心的眼泪。

放心吧,
我不会后悔,
我的未来,
我有我的筹划,
你不用操心。

我爱你。
请好好珍惜这美好的五年。

baby come back to me

好消息!

搞定了!

宝贝回来了,

WOOHOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can't you breath the fresh air???
Can't you see i'm reborn???

I FEEL GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

一直ngai ngai ngai,
终于,
皇天不负苦心人!
我的宝贝回来了!

好想你哦!
好想紧紧抱着你哦!

我爱你!

rabbit



兔兔和毛毛~
看到他们我真的要哭了...

我们的过去,
什么都没有,
就剩下零碎的回忆...

Our fate???



Found it in youtube.
Focus on 2.58 -- 3.29 min,
I really feel like wanna faint at that part.
Haiz...

can i?

眼睛湿了又干,
干了又湿,
从来不曾间断过。

这是我的错,
谁叫我不是男生,
为什么不是男生?
如果我是的话,
我们都将会幸福一辈子...

拥抱着、亲吻着
一个即将离开的爱人,
那会是什么感觉?

就因为我拥有无止境的未来,
所以你必须忍痛离开我。
那我宁愿我剩下的是三个月的生命,
至少我们之间的一切不会改变...

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Friends

To my friends,
I love you all,
you're great.
I never know that i would actually have so many of you show up when i am lost and lonely... T.T *hugs* to all of you.

Chee Hui:
I started to know you since we were both 16. And during all these times, you've given me full support on whatever i'm facing. You try to protect me from everything, shield me from every harm. It is great to have a best friend like you. You're going to migrate to Melbourne right? How can i not miss you? Can i say "dun go"? Haha, i know its impossible. Thanks for everything, really, you're just like my sist, a real sist. when i do wrong things, you scold me; when i need you, you always be there; when there is a prob, you always back me up. You keep on calling me these days, i know you are worrying about me, but i am sorry, i still dun have enough courage to talk anything about this. I'll be fine, i'm going to meet you up after holidays.

Ji-an:
Sor lou, i'm ok la. Just dun over reacting, your bro me is tough. I know you're keen to introduce many leng lui's to me, but really i'm not interested. Do you think its so easy to get over someone you're so in love with? NO. When i need help, you and Chee Hui will always be there. You always try to make me laugh when i'm down, and trying hard to comfort me although you're not good at it. I appreciate it. Thanks. I know you're going through a hard time too. She is going, and you're sad, but there's nothing you can do, we can do. My problem is nothing compare to yours. Two innocent lovers separated by a huge ocean. Dun worry about me, i'm fine.

Fang:
Brother, 每次我心情不好你都会第一时间讲冷笑话给我听,哈哈!真的很冷咯。不用担心,你兄弟我很好,我会坚强地走下去。比起世界上很多痛苦的事情,我的这算什么。你真的是个很好的brother, 每次我手头紧的时候,或考试没读书的时候,你都会尽量地帮我撑腰,虽然这个不懂是在害了我还是帮我?哈哈~其实我现在最想做的事是:唱K,唱掉所有的烦恼和忧愁。但你酱迟回来,怎样咧?谢谢你的关心,谢谢你为我写的那篇部落格,谢谢你的冷笑话(真的很死鬼冷~),谢谢你的一切。我只是需要时间去释怀。过了这以后,我会好好地读书,因为我知道年尾考试,我不会再有你在我旁边帮我了。来,给我一个拥抱~

Rainbow & Marylin:
Yo bros. Dun worry, i'm fine. Can't wait to see you guys back on Thursday, let's take a bet on my wedges, i tell you!! It will open that day, and i'll get the chance to eat that yummy wedges!! I'll be less on SHIM, with all the stuff going on, i'm not in the mood to socialize. I'm ok, i just need some time to think things off. Buddies~~

Thank you...
It really means a lot to me. Your concerns and comforts. I'll be good after a few days. Dun worry.
Once again, I thank you.

swears

我再也不敢乱乱发誓了。
我曾经发誓,
如果当初你没有交上我吩咐你的功课给我,
我们的爱情将在8个月就结束。
你并没有交上功课,
而它应验了,
真的应验了。
它的代价原来是那么地惨痛。
真的结束了吗?
我们还有很多事情还没来得及做呢。
你就这么急着要走了吗?

我再也不会乱乱发誓了。

有什么方法可以让我收回我的誓言?
就算是用折寿来交换,
我也能够答应,
只要不要再这样折磨我了。
我求求你。

Sunday, September 20, 2009

sigh...

曾经挣扎了那么久,
花了那么多时间去接受、学习、进步,
一直很努力地去经营...

曾经告诉自己,
我主要的任务是要在你身边照顾你、保护你,
陪你学习、陪你经历,
到了对的时候,
我会很自然地放手...

曾经以为我可以很潇洒地挥手,
用我的招牌笑容笑着和你说再见。

曾经告诉自己很多很多很多东西...

但,
我却一一破例了。

现在,
离开你,
真的那么容易吗?

放开你,
真的像以前说的那么简单吗?

我是那种很难确认是爱的人。
我不能接受无端端跑出一个人来告诉我他喜欢我,
也不能接受在交往都不到几个月就和我说“我爱你”。
除非我对你有了一定的了解,
或你真的确定了你对我的心意,
不然请想都别想。
这是为什么交往了半年我才正式地告诉你那几个字。

什么是爱?
我用了很久的日子来揣摩这个单词。
到我遇上你的那天,
我一直都不敢确认我对你的就是爱,
我一直怀疑到底是不是我在幼稚、不成熟。
直到现在,
我才了解,
我爱你。
当我对你说我爱你的时候,
就是别人的非常爱了。

你说3年对你我来说都太长久了,
要改期至一年就够了。
这是为什么我鄙视所谓的承诺!
因为承诺,
很脆弱,
只要一方变心,
这承诺自然地就失效了。
这也是我不会随便对你许下任何承诺的原因,
没有信心兑现就不要答应。

承诺不是说是你提出的,
你就有任何的权利更改条件。
承诺是属于两个人的,
你必须想清楚你要的是什么,
才跟对方提出,
不是到了后悔,
才想来改变一切。

难道你真的那么地天真地以为,
只要一切变回到了原点,
当作什么都没发生过,
东西就还是一样的吗?
不要那么地天真了,
没有可能的。

我就知道当我告诉了你后,
你一定会动摇。
果然,
你动摇了。

收到了你的信息,
我憋了一个下午,
强颜欢笑了一个黄昏,
回到了家,
洗澡...
泪水和淋下的热水参杂着,
想要发疯式地嘶吼、咆哮,
一直忍啊忍,
眼泪不停地流,
心里好痛好痛,
说不出的刺痛,
握紧双拳,
咬紧牙根,
紧闭双眼,
一直叫自己停止抽泣,
几乎不能呼吸了。

曾经的我,
不是这样的。
我不会为了一些不必要的烦恼而哭泣。
但,
因为你。

我以为你是特别的,
但你却和别人一样,
一样自私。
你不曾想过这样做那样做会如何伤害你爱的人。
你知道我为你做的每件事,
和你诉说的每个心情写照,
我都谨慎过滤过吗?
因为我怕你会因此难过、伤心,
甚至受伤害。
看着自己最爱的人因为我而受伤,
这是我最不能忍受的事。

你这样残忍地告诉我,
难道你一点都不痛心的吗?
哈,
也许我不是你真正爱的人...
但,
你知道吗?
你是我很爱的人,
很爱很爱很爱很爱的人。

你想怎样就怎样吧...
当你走了后,
就请你记得,
我曾经在你心里遗留的足迹,
在你眼里留下的笑容。

还是得说声“对不起”,
因为我,
你受了很多委屈。
我知道你也不想,
但这是事实,
很多东西都不在我们的管辖能力以内。
但,
如果你还对我有那么一丁点的依恋,
请记得我们的约定,
等我。

Friday, September 18, 2009

Finally Exam over

Finally,
the torturing exam week is over~
Phew!!!

I am so happy leh,
i know how to answer the bio paper today,
at least its better than last time.

Applied math -- 40/50
Pure math -- 25/50
Chemistry -- FAIL!

The marks i got for this test.
1st,
really thank you my bro -- Fang,
*APPLAUSE* clap clap clap!
But our Applied math paper were suspected
to curi tengok each others' by our Ms.Chua (lecturer),
cuz when Fang wrote the wrong answer,
i just copied just as the same.
Dun talk about chemistry,
i admit i dint study at all,
so its reasonable for me to fail this time.
David Loh arh~~
Haiz...
I keep on ponteng classes recently,
i know its really a bad thing to do,
but really i dunno what happen to me lately.
i can't do that anymore.
No no NO.

Holiday comes again~
But i totally dun have the mood,
cuz when the holidays are over,
that means we are going to face our Year-end exam very soon.

Study study study...
study is my life...

Rabbit

前两天在彩虹那里找到兔兔的无名,
开始封他为偶像。

其实比起杨杨、耐吉、仔仔、紫伦,
我对兔兔的印象不是很深。
直到那天看了他的无名,
超感动。

他想的东西怎么和我一样?
我和他所面对的困扰到他的思维模式几乎相像。
很少人会这么仔细地去描述自己心里想的是什么,
有些人甚至不会提到。

兔兔想扮演的角色和我一样,
想永远地和他毛毛在一起,
照顾心爱的人,
但心里却总是拌渣着一些矛盾和挣扎,
面对外来的压力,
承受许多不赞成的眼光。
但他们却可以找到属于他们的兔窝,
房间里还放了张双人床。
很羡慕。

他也曾经地担心和犹豫,
但却没想到他们一起走过了四年,
从原本的没有信心,
到今天的稳定,
都撑过来了。
很感动......

我们可以像兔兔和毛毛一样一直地幸福下去吗?
真的好想~

兔兔无名:
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/usagi604

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宝贝,
我爱你。

Thursday, September 17, 2009

GERAM!!!

Just came back from TBR with Marylin and Rainbow.

GERAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That wedges stall dint open today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GERAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want that delicious crispy tasty wedges!!!!!!!!

TENG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what happen to this world?

感谢两为兄台
--彩虹没拉链
小弟终于找到了我们的专属天堂~

有点吓倒,
看到很多以前的朋友,
现在都是P了。

是悲是喜?

有人说,
超级不好,
因为她们之间的竞争力会越来越强,
到时就变成僧多粥少的情况发生~


世界到底是怎么了?


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Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Dating for the whole day

Let's put it in this way,
Literally,
I din go to college today.

I went to baby's house when her bro was still sleeping.
Spending most of the time in bed (dun think too much XD),
since i was not allowed to be seen around her house.
Curi-curi lo...

I love baby so much,
really really so much...

Hey guys,
my kiss bites successful ady leh!!!
WAHAhHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

I think i kena racun ady,
just can't stop thinking of you.
I think i am going to be crazy!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Guilty guilty

惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧,

惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧...

看到别人为他女朋友生日花了这么多心思,
还筹备了两个月,
真的很惭愧很惭愧......

今年宝贝生日,
我也没有给她任何惊喜,
最多也不是把初吻献给她罢了,
唉~
现在真的超惭愧的...

我的浪漫因子,
到底跑到哪里去了?
不行,
不能再酱没有表示了,
不能在酱NOOB了,
要主动要积极一点,
得想办法...

惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧-惭愧...

To my loved ones



Dy,
I would never disappoint you with my studies again.
I will work hard to achieve your goals.
This is what i can ever repay you.
I know sometimes i've been bad,
but you just kept quiet and say nothing,
and this makes me even more guilty.

Mee,
I know you've been sad for how i have turned out recently.
I'm sorry,
but please do accept that your child has grown up.
I know i am not an ideal child,
there are things you know that you just dun wanna say.

Yang,
Although i always bully you,
yet you still sayang me,
so now i sayang you back.
But please control your emotions,
you're pissing me off.

Baby
I know sometimes i am noob,
i dunno what can i do to please you,
and you would lost your own freedom
when you're with me.
All i am able to do is love you.
Although i cannot spend the rest of my life with you,
i would still love you within my power.

Gugu,
you don't have any child,
but you treat us as if we are your own child,
you sayang us so much,
no matter how hard,
you'll try to fulfill our needs,
especially mine.

Ah Gong,
although you had passed away for 12 years,
i still miss you sometimes.
I remembered everytime we went and had ice cream.
Dy looks so much like you recently,
so much resemblance...

To all my loved ones,
thank you that you'd shown up by the times i need you.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

what is this saturday?

刚从康城回来。
顶!
我们几乎用了一小时到那边咯~
死METRO BUS,
一直停停停,
原本15分钟车程搞到要用1小时,
历尽几番波折才到!
这是我第二次去咧,
第一次是去年KEY CLUB FAREWELL后去的。
咳咳,
虽然说中华的每个人基本上都应该是康城kaki,
但对我这类鲜少出门的怪胎来说,
有去过康城已经算很好了咯~

然后就在那边看到凯莹和丘比特他们。
他们说为什么我好像没看见他们酱?
在学校也是酱。
sorry咯,
我是真的没有看到吗......

很饿咧,
那些先到的粉肠已经在那边吃了,
自己叫了碗spaghetti,
才知道几乎全部粉肠都叫spaghetti~

一边吃spaghetti的时候,
Erin开了一个叫"Dirty Eyed Girls"的video给我看。
Walao~
很gay的feel咯,
几个大男生还可以这样大胆开放地扭动他们身体~
屁股竟然比女生的还翘!
顶!

现在我才知道,
原来我的部落格是有人看的...
丘比特告诉我凯莹是我部落格的粉丝,
每天还上网去gap我的blog的wor~
然后没拉链有时还可以把我的blog的东西背起来,
蕴倪也跟我说他的朋友每次去cc都会开我的blog来看。
喂,
酱棒场咩?
留一下comment啦,
让我知道你来过吗~
但hor,
有一个坏处是------
不能讲人家坏话了咧~

这几天身边的人不懂做么,
有了另一半却又想回到ex的身边,
不然就吵架。
然后就跑来和我诉苦。
问题是我情况也不是很乐观,
被妈妈尸+吊,
读不下书,
宝贝又对我忽冷忽热,
然后一个两个跑来对我大吐苦水,
这岂不是苦上加苦??
真的有想要崩溃的感觉......

刚才考了GP和PURE MATH。
GP还可以,
PURE MATH就...
坐在我brother旁边,
我可以无所事事,
看来看去望东望西,
整张考卷我只会做第一题...
然后Fang做完了,
我就拿她的整张去抄。
18年以来第一次酱颓废,
根本就放弃了PURE MATH,
就连看也没看一眼。
但,
对于BIO我就很努力啦~
因为我和Fang不要给Ah Foo看死咧!
但都不懂读得完没有,
唉~

今天星期六还要回college上课,
显到~~~~~~~~~
很累......

Thursday, September 10, 2009

thinking

There are somethings that i shouldn't think about.
But they just came appear in my mind.

I want it all,
but it would never turn out right.

What am i thinking?
There are loads of question and curiosities linger in me.

This is a one huge regret that i would face a whole lifetime.

I desire it all more than anything.
But is it right to even think about it?

Its an all new sensation that i'd never felt before.
But its so tangible that i almost slip my mind into it.
When it happened,
i'd felt my soul leaving apart my body.
Its so untrue, so unreal...

With my thinking buds off like a stray cloud,
maybe i should rewind the thoughts
which have been wheeling inside me for long.

Everybody says I am still a kid.
There are things could happen beyond our grasps,
so we shouldn't think too much,
or else it would drive us mad.

I am abnormal,
I admit that.
With all the things i am doing,
thinking about the principles and consequences is a must to me.
I analyse and reanalyse everything that turn out.
And people said,
it makes me die faster than ever.

I have distanced myself from my own rules and perspectives.
I should have determind to what i want,
what i desire,
what i crave for,
what i wish to pursue...
I have created my own brand of philosophy,
but now it seems to be very brittle and fragile
to stand against my thoughts recently.

I should pray more often.
This is what i can do while keeping me confuse.

..............................................................................................................................


I love my baby more than anything,
apart from my family.
If everything comes out from my mouth is a lie,
then this will be the only truth you'd heard from me.

this pic

I like this pic,
keke^^



It says EVERYTHING about us...
I Love You

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Baby-ing

SweeEe--EEeeT

I met up with baby today.
The plan was supposed to be canceled,
but i still decided to go in the end.

I stopped by jusco to collect my B.A donuts,
then straightly went to Chong Hwa.
Damn IT!!!!!!!!!!
Dad,
can you please please let me drive please~??
Do you know how stupid for
a graduate to stand in front of the school main gate??
with everyone staring at you using weird glances???
Let me drive next time leh...
Then everytime baby and i have to wait under the sun,
sweating like cow!!!
Pity my baby...

So so so,
we went back home by taxi...
I am a TAXI KAKI ady...
I met up a particular taxi driver twice in 2 months,
then that time he was like,
"Ah moi, kamu tar kolej ke??"
"Ya, haha." (tried to ignore him that time~)
"Awak macam pernah naik teksi saya lah."
(I thought he just picked out his random quote)
"Haha, ya ke??"
"Hari tu kamu pergi tar kolej dari Jusco kan??"
(Actually i forgot ady)
then i looked into the mirror,
it was the same abang wearing cap and sunglasses,
haha,
"Oh ya, haha, abang selalu datang sini ke??"
I was startled that i actually opened a topic.
"Oh, saya banyak hantar tar kolej punya..."
Then the conversation continued until i reached Chong Hwa.
I guess the reason he remembered me is bcuz,
i used to give him RM5 instead of RM3++,
and asked him to keep the change...
Luckily he is NORMAL,
Jian actually met a taxi driver
who dicussed about sex topics...
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Then Jian directly asked him to stop in front
and rather wait for another taxi.

Back to my baby...
Everything went on as usual.
(THE USUAL~)

Holding my baby,
as if all the things happen in the world
doesn't matter anymore~

I LOVE YOU.

Around 3pm,
i was forced to release baby,
haiz...
Its time to go back ady...

And so this is the end of today~

Baby~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

chong hwa prom 2009

Chong Hwa is helding a PROM???
Mainly for form 5 this year???
you must've be kidding me~

So does it makes us lame??
That our form 5 2008 had done nothing at all...

My baby going to prom???
Can't imagine how exotic and sexy she would be...
Sure got thousands of stalkers ask for her hand of partnership!!!
Can i go along too???

but i'm short...

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Passive nooby

对朋友,
我很主动。
我可以很主动地上前牵起他们的手,
不论女生男生,
一样可以很爽快。
我可以很主动地搂住她们的腰,
丝毫不会尴尬。

但,
为什么???
为什么我对宝贝就会显得特别扭捏?
特别被动??
从牵手、拥抱到接吻...
每当我面对她的时候,
总是变得木讷被动...

为什么咧?
有时真的很可怜她...
什么东西都要她主动。
唉~

有人说,
我始终不敢踏出第一步的原因是
因为我怕被拒绝...
怕被拒绝过后没有面子...
是这样咩?
是这样啊?
唉~

不要认为我不爱她,
或她不够吸引我,
只是面对她,
我会不知不觉变得很NOOB...

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Wangsa walk mall

Just came back from dinner.
With grandpa and xiao yi.

After that we went to take a look in
Wangsa Walk Mall,
a shopping centre which is going to open soon
around our Setapak area.

I saw that stupid Strawberry saloon there,
really gek si!!
Friends,
dun ever walk into that saloon,
it will freaking ruin your hair
like what they did to me last year.
After that incident,
i swear to God that
I will never let anyone of them touch my hair!!
OK.
Then walk, walk, walk.
I saw SILVER CUT there,
ooo,
lovely,
i saw the boss and the boss wife,
they'd recognised my whole family,
cuz mum and dad used to have their haircut
at their headquater in Desa Setapak.
And i saw their daughter!!!!
A T!!!!!
Damn yeang one!!!
She was my kai jie's ex by the way.
She didn't look that yeng in the few years back,
but now,
WOW!!!!
Cool~
Friends,
i recommend you this saloon,
your hair would come out totally beautiful and nice,
like MINE (wakakakakakakakakakakakaka XD!!!!)

I used to expect it would some sort look like 1U,
or the curve or Mid Valley.
It was kinda disappointed...
It isn't that big.
But at least it has a bowling court and TGV cinema,
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA!!!
I can go out with those college fun cheongs
without going too far!
YAY!!
But for dating......
Hem hem...
=_=!ll
Its too dangerous,
cuz there are too many people we know around this area.
Neighbbours, parents' friends, clients...
VERY DANGEROUS~

Fast fast open la~
oh yea,
i wanna inform those fun cheong now,
bb.

Friday, September 4, 2009

surprise - T World

最近一直在玩Facebook,
找回很多很多的朋友,
感动+ing~

只是有少少地吓倒,
原来很多朋友都拍拖了,
有了男朋友,
而且那些男朋友都是T。
*拍掌!拍掌!*

现在这个现象真的很普遍咧。
根据调查显示,
10个女生里面有2位是T,
另外3位是P (P = T的老婆)。

我到底应该高兴还是悲哀好?
不知道咧,
因为我是他们其中一位 XD。
才发觉很多跟T交往的女生,
大部分之前都曾经被伤害过。

能够找到你爱的人,
而那人又爱你,
就应该好好珍惜。
就像我爱我宝贝一样。
能够照顾一个人,
不是每个人都给予这个机会这个能力,
所以你在被给予机会的时候,
更应该好好去珍惜。
这是特别说给男生的话。
很多好女生都从你们身边溜走了。
对她们来说,
与其找一个不珍惜她的人,
不如找一个疼爱她的人。

原来外面有很多人都跟我们一样。
很安慰我们的存在慢慢地可以被大众接受了。

祝福你们。

现在唯一想做的就是,
跑到宝贝身边抱住她。

Chong hwa independent



Walao~
We came back just in time...

After Chemistry tutorial,
Erin suddenly suggested wanna go Petaling street to makan,
everyone was like 'HUH??',
9 people which ended up only 5 of us going,
(since we can only stuck 5 person in a car)
Then Cheryl suddenly changed plan,
suggested to go back to her former school:
Chong Hwa Independent KL.

It took around 30 minutes to get there.
You know what excuse we used to enter the school compound??
Cheryl showed her Chong Hwa ID card to the guard,
"Jumpa cikgu."
Then the guard looked at the rest of us,
"Semua pun jumpa cikgu??"
"Ya." (with a pair of innocent eyes~)
Cheryl dim!!!!!

So familiar leh...
All the buildings and the scenes.
I used to studied CHKL when i was Form 1,
but later i turned into very bad,
I started to learn
"DIU!", "SOHAI!", "MAHAI!", "WAIYE!", "TENG!",
all these damn harsh word over there,
Plus,
transportation problem,
were the reasons that my mum transfered me to CHKL, Jln Gombak.
So bad huh???

We went into their canteen,
WHOA,
just like a hawker centre,
Chicken rice, noodle soup, asam laksa la...
Loads of loads of FOOD!!!
Not just food,
its NICE, DELICIOUS food!!!!
Cheryl ordered a plate of mixed rice,
with plenty plenty of vege,
it took only RM2!!
Damn cheap!!
I ordered my old favourite which i used to eat almost everyday
during Form 1 time:
Chee cheong fun (tarc version: 'G' cheong fun~)!!!
just a simple and small dish,
but it came out damn nice de leh!!
Then Erin orderd a bowl of Prawn mee,
she said not bad too.
Fang took noodle soup and Feng took curry mee,
both also nodded their heads when i asked them nice anot.
I still missed that nasi lemak leh,
still remember i ate the nasi lemak with their potato and sambal,
walao,
i used to eat that often too~
Reminicsing the food there~~

It was quite crowded that time,
cuz we were so lucky kena their recess time...
All small small kiddos appeared,
so funny...

We finished our meal with Fang's ice kacang.
After that,
we took a look around their school compound,
Erin and Cheryl went hyped
when they spotted the legendary Chong Hwa pond,
they quickly posed and wanted us to take pics =_=!ll..







After the photo session,
walao,
very late ady leh,
so we quickly rushed back to Erin's car.
Then they met Joyce who was Cheryl ex-high school classmate,
and Erin's ex-primary school classmate,
and I used to know her too,
we took the same BATMAN bus last time
since she was staying at Wangsa Perkasa
(same area with baby),
such a small world heh???

So we came back just in time..

I still have 2 hours to go...
OMG,
so boring...

Thursday, September 3, 2009

i can breath!

Guess who sent me msg just now???

BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can breath!!!

Woohoo~~~~~~~~~~

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Heart-broken

What am i doing??

what should i do??

Why do you left me heart-broken again??

Why must you make everything difficult??

Why are you so cruel to leave me alone??

You wanted me to promise you,
such a trillion times,
not to dump dai you alone.
But you're doing the same thing to me now...
So do you think that,
its because you'd never promised me before,
so you can simply dump me like that??
Do you think you have the right to say
what's right what's wrong??
Am i a stupid to you??

After you finish enjoying the love i gave you,
and you feel that's enough ady,
you lost that freshness of our love ady,
starting to lost interest with me,
and so,
you dun feel like to play anymore...

Are you playing me??
Are you fooling me??
Why on earth must you do that??
Am i geing too honest??
Am i being too noob??
Am i being not good enough??

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS???
Am i really that boring to you??
If you dun like the way i'm loving you,
you can tell me,
i'll try and change.

It's so heart-breaking...

Can anybody kill me off??
Murder me...

All these are getting unbearable...

Why can't you just sit down and enjoy all the things
i am doing for you??
Do you think you are that brilliant??
Do you think can control everything??

Its FUCKING heart-breaking...

...........................................................................



I smell oily...

Just came back from TBR...

I smell oily leh.
How to go dating o???

Old photos

I just browsed through my old photos,
really beh tahan~
I quickly glanced through all of them.
Such a big difference.
Dunno why baby would like me that time...
????????

I like myself more now......

wow,
everything changed since i graduate.

......................................................................................................................................

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Chemistry test

My chemistry test...

i dun even know what was i doing...
WAH~~~~~~~~~~ T.T
I just tembak for MCQ,
who knows,
i got the same mark with Fang..
WooHoo,
8/20!!!!!!

Next week,
we will be having applied math test AGAIN,
chapter 1 & 2...

Jia yi is currently sitting for her trial...
It means that we're going to face it very soon.

Cambridge A level is going to suck at my hands.
Wait and see la...

Our pretty Ms.Stephanie announced that she is leaving,
earliest maybe next week...
To complete her late master in UM...
Why O' why??????
Why such a good lecturer have to go??
We're like abandoned child,
no one wants us...
Today once again i observed Ms.Stephanie,
I found out that she is really really exotic in a way,
although she is petite,
but she has the special charisma,
that attract people wanna know more about her...
Dun leave us can???

I

love my baby girl
see you tomorrow
one week din hug you ady
love you

Mo-ther!!!

I went to college 11++am just now...

The whole H block was empty,
and i was foolish enough to climb up the stairs...
After seeing all desks and chairs were being arranged neatly,
i realized there is an exam going on...

So i called Erin...
She din answer...
Nevermind,
i tried to call others.
Who knows!!!!!!
"You have insuficient credit to..." blah blah blah~
oh mo-ther!!!
Now only you run out of money!!
Then i decided to go and reload,
again!!!
"Digi, takde la..."
WHAT THE F***!!!!!

So that's why now i'm blogging!!
Cuz i'm in CITC now!!!!

Before i reached college,
I received a call from our dear Xiu Fang...
She was suppose to come back KL from Johor yesterday,
but she missed the bus,
so it turned out that today only she can rushed back..
Then,
alamak,
the bus involved in a road accident on the way in Seremban..
so she doesn't think she can rush back ady...
hell,
we have that David's super chemistry test today leh...
I pity you la, Fang...

My family is kelam-kabut now...
really mess up...
My mum suddenly went crazy
and started crying in the morning,
then suddenly fell sick in the afternoon after lunch...
We were afaid to disturb her while she was resting,
so we avoid enter her room,
who knows until evening nite,
she screamed and shouted scold us...
walao~

Then i was feeling dizzy this morning...

WHAT IS THIS LIFE?????




I miss my baby girl so badly...
I am coming to see you tomorrow,
YAY~
*things to bring:
- Me myself
- reference books
- pington comics
- sweater with my scent