金毛拉拉

今天跑去染头发，
生病头痛，
几乎神智不清了，
还是坚持跑去染。

染到不错下，
蛮满意的。
but，
我很可怜我的bro，
花了RM80却染不成功，
因为她之前染过黑色，
很难再上色，
却没有和阿姐讲。

之前黑色，有人讲蛮有＂气质＂的～



现在金毛，有人讲很拉拉wor～

我现在整个人就很金毛样，
回来还是有被老妈骂到。

bro，
不要伤心啦（看到你失望的表情）...
这是教训你，
以后要找像我阿姐那样专业的理发师来弄你头发，
不要再乱乱给那些阿猫阿狗弄了。

距离

不懂发生了什么事，
是我敏感还是什么，
我越来越感觉到，
我们之间的距离。

是因为2个月没有见面的关系吗？
还是因为纪念日那天我没有任何表示？

对不起。

我不喜欢距离。
真的很不喜欢。

很累...

最近考试，
很累...

每天熬夜，
很累...

昨晚吵架，
很累...

我，
身心俱疲，
为什么你们就是不能谅解我？

很累...
很累...
很累...
很累...
很累...

累...

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1 year anniversary

Happy 1 Year Anniversary

*sigh*
But we can't get the chance to see each other,
cuz' bii's sist is at home,
which means,
NO CELEBRATION.

Can you believe???
Its already been 1 year!
1 year of arguements,
1 year of sweet moments,
1 year of surprises,
1 year of silly break ups,
You and Me have gone through exactly 1 year!!!

There is so much in my head,
so much thoughts,
all about you,
YOU,
you,
you again,
only you,
and finally YOU!!!

Our promise of eternity,
I am willing to sacrifice even my life just for it.
Believe me,
although i know sometimes i am never that perfect,
But you,
you make me wanna be a better MAN.

1 year,
we have gone through so many things,
even some of my friends look at us admiringly,
one of them told,,
"I've never had a relationship so long."
Another one told me,
"My longest relationship is only been 7 months".
But for me,
1 year,
is just a beginning for both of us~
A beginning for us to understand each other,
a beginning for us to become a part in each other's life,
a beginning for our love to bloom~

I love you, bii~~~
Really,
I never thought i would actually fall in love with you,
SO DEEPLY,
I never trust anything like this,
but you have shown them all to me,
proven everything which seems impossible to me,
you make me BELIEVE.

I am sorry,
that i couln't make it today.
I am so sorry.
But I promise you,
I'll never ever leave you alone on this day again,
you'll have me by your side every year in this particular day.

Lou po, I Love You.

p/s: I suddenly feel like crying...

Smiling to myself

I caught myself smiling this afternoon,
after all only i realize i was thinking about you.

Values

Sometimes,
I really dunno what to say.
That is called -- sppechless.

Somethings,
I shared them to certian people,
That is called -- trust.

Somethings,
I do not wished to be revealed,
That is called -- privacy.

Sometimes,
I would support him/her rather than denying him/her,
That is called -- acceptance.

Sometimes,
I would accept him/her rather than doubting him/her,
That is called -- respect.

Someone,
I'll open my heart entirely to,
which I believe cuz',
That is called -- friends.

DO YOU HAVE ANY OF THESE VALUES?

I'm yours, You're mine.

At last,
bii requested my fb password.

I was kinda stuggle whether i should give her anot,
cuz' i've been staying solo developed in the past 19 years.
But i understand about the difference now anyway,
that I am no longer ME(myself),
that this is a matter about the two of us,
means WE.
WE have to trust each other by any means,
WE have to have faith within each other.

So i decided to gave her.
Who knows she got angry by my password code,
cuz' its somebody's name and D.O.B in it instead of hers,
she's kinda shocked and thought i'd be up to no good,
setting some other girls' details as my password.
XD LOL~~~
Its hard for her not to ger mad or something,
(Who is she??? She is my beloved babe!!!)
So I explained,
and things got relieved.

I'll put your details as my password code next time k???
AWW~~~~~~
So cuuuuuuute~~~

Most of the buddies say that this is VERY COMMON,
some of the gf's even sign into their bf's fb,
using HIS account to play games & quizzes & stuffs,
and even disguise as HIM to chat with his friends!
Then after a several CHECKINGS,
they will eventually sign out and sign in again using their own fb account.

COOL eh????????
That's what couples do~~~

Hey bii,
feel free to visit my fb by anytime~~~

Cuz',
I'M YOURS, YOU'RE MINE.

众里寻他千百度

众里寻他千百度，暮然回首，那人就在灯火阑珊处。

守候了几千年，
等待了几世纪，
才发现，
一直苦苦期待的那个人，
其实早已在我身旁。

我没有要求绚丽的爱情，
更不奢望神圣的守护，
但这两者，
你都给了我。

一年的感情，
不是儿戏。
彼此都建立了默契。

是我从前，
太低估你身上完美的气质。
我总以为，
可以在外面找到很多个你。
惊觉，
你，
是世上独一无二的。

承诺，
守护对方一辈子。
其实我想承诺，
你的下一辈子， 也让我来守护好吗？
因为我要弥补，
我这一辈子，
无法为你生命完整地画上句号的遗憾。

寻寻觅觅，
才明了一直深爱的那个她，
也一直深爱着我。

原来，
感动，
不需要惊天动地。

你的肯定，
你的坚决，
成了我继续前进的原动力。

如果有一天，
撒旦想要勾取我们俩其中一个的性命，
我会选择让你随他而去，
独留我一个人暗然神伤，
留在世上面对失去的恐惧，
也不要你承受这一切比死还痛苦的折磨。

这一辈子让我来守护你，
下一辈子，
也让我来守护你好吗？
不管经过多少次的轮回，
我会一直地等下去，
等到从你口中对我说出：我愿意。
为了这一章节，
我一定要等，
等我的转换，
等你的出现，
等我的守候，
等你的愿意。

众里寻他千百度，暮然回首，那人就在灯火阑珊处。

I'm tired!!!

你们可以不要一直这样吗？

每次我和我朋友聚会，
都要被你们挑三挑四。
好不容易，
定下决心来做功课，
只是熬夜罢了吗！
也要被你们讲一番！

我喜欢熬夜啊，
吹啊？？！！！

不要这么control freak可以吗？
什么东西都指望我们照着你们的方法做！

你知不知道为什么我一直做不完功课吗？
如果你敢说是因为和朋友每天出去的话，
那我离家出走！
那一点点时间搞屁啊？
就算多早回到家，
我还不是一样睡觉睡到八点！
真正的原因是你们的儿子的缘故！
每个晚上坐在他旁边，
他总是埋怨学校这个不好那个不好，
一直在我耳边ngam ngam ngam，
我还要好心回答他，
你要我怎样专心温习？

我真的很显了啊！
你们每次都用这个来当我把柄，
每次威胁我，
我真的很显了啊！
你们问问自己，
难道我没有和朋友聚会的话，
我会很标青吗？
所以，
拜托你们不要这么幼稚好不好？
我真的很fed up了，
19岁，
你们还是这样对我...

以后我有机会就离你们远去，
你们可不能怪我，
这是你现在种下的因，
以后得到的果。

I'm so bored of all this!!!
Can't you just stop picking this as an excuse for my mistakes???
I know uni life would be different,
more freedom, more time,
but my friends now in college,
I just know them for once in my lifetime,
and i never cross the line,
and please!
SO DO YOU!!!

I dun care already,
i'm gonna dye my hair RED,
to reflect our disagreements recently!!!
I'm tired!!!

Shooo~~~!!!

Shoo~~!! Shoo~~!!
GO AWAY!!!

All stupid flies and moronic bees,
SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~!!!

Go away!!!




NO one is allowed to lay their hands on her,
nor touching her,
nor looking her in an unkind way.

If anyone of you would like to pursue her,
please pack your stuff and go back home now,
because she is FOREVER UNAVAILABLE,
that means you won't stand a chance by it.

Are you clear,
Stupid flies and moronic bees???
I swear to God i'll destroy you,
if anyone of you dare to bother her.
Cuz' bothering her = BOTHERING ME!
I SWEAR.

So,
SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!

*No one can give her the love the way i can.
I have never been so confident to myself before,
but this,
THIS,
I'm determined to be confident.

GOOD NEWS!!!

GOOD NEWS!!!

My beloved bii is coming back~~~~~~~~!!!

BABY IS COMING BACK!!!

YAY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!

BABY IS COMING BACK TOMORROW!!!

Kiss me baby...
I'm so happy T_T~~~
Bii messaged me during chem lecture,

i was so heng fan,

and since then,

i keep smiling and laughing to myself,

like a moron,

2 months separation almost murder me,

but now i have come back to life at last!!!

Who else wanna fuck with me today??!!??!!

I am dulan+ing!!!

Ok,
let's start from this morning.
I prepared earlier than usual,
7.45am already get ready,
I wore my shoes,
finished praying,
and goddamn,
dad came down by 8am!!!

Then i quickly climbed up to Honda CRV,
who knows dad wanted to drive Toyota Harrier instead!!!
FIne,
then hor,
dunno what was going into his head,
he used the Jusco lane!!!
Usuially he uses the MRR2 lane,
cuz its faster and the distance is lesser,
today,
GOOD!!!
I almost wanna late ady,
he lagi use that way!!!!
SO, I WAS LATE ADY LOR!!!!!
Good,
entered class,
Ms.Evelyn taught until very far away ady!!!
Lagi teruk, I found out my my short-sighted has increased!!!
When i wear con,
BLUR,
wear spec,
LAGI BLUR!!!

Oh FUCK OH FUCK!!!
Who else wanna fuck with me today??!!??!!

Not-very-happy bday to mum

Today is my mum's bday.
We just done quarrelling 1 week ago,
2 day ago,
we quarrelled again.
And Last nite,
we almost got into quarrel again.

But still she is my mum,
since i have no idea what to give her.
I went to Jusco with Erin to order flowers for her.
And RM100 just flew away like that,
2 stalks of Lily cost me dearly!!!

After that we went back for tutorial classes,
finally Bio practical.
Wow,
came a cute and leng lui lecturer,
currently 25 years old,
in a relationship,
has a boyfriend who always like to leave his phone bluetooth on,
but she is short and damn thin!!!
Yi Wen has to retired ady...

Perasan in bio lab when using microscope XD.

At last,
i went to Jusco after school,
passed by KFC,
bought a little box of popcorn chicken,
i started to being carnivorous these days,
haiz,
just can't resist the chicken-temptation.
Then I went to collect the flowers,
and walked straightly to LRT station,
attracted so many attentions.

Perasan lagi outside Jusco XD.

Who knows,
As i just entered the house,
I kena marah again...
Mum asked me why should i lied to her
(I told her i'd be studying in library later),
and why on earth i have to do so???
WHY???
WHY???
WHY DUN YOU ASK YOURSDELF WHY?????
ALL BECAUSE OF YOU LA!!!!!
I really cannot tahan ady!!!
Why must she make everything complicated???
Why on earth must she make me feel so unhappy???
I dun understand.

HAPPY B'DAY MUM,
But i really cannot tahan you!

I DON'T DESERVE YOU

现在才明白，
原来，
爱一个人，
可以这么做，
愿意这么做。

I DON'T DESERVE YOU...

我到底有什么好，
值得让你为我这么做。

你为什么那么爱我？
有什么值得你这样的爱？

越来越讨厌自己。

因为自己不够好。

can i smile like this???

Can i smile like this???

But with swollen eys and redden nose???

I dunno.

I want you so badly,

my dear bii~~~~~

When are you coming back,

so that i can hold you, hug you,

and kiss you again???

My sweet little miracle,

thanks for making everything

meaningful to me,

That is why,

i'm still breathing,

my heart's still beating,

all because of you.

No matter how hard this will be,

I will love you,

till the day you don't love me anymore,

although this may sounds a little bit

--IMPOSSIBLE~

I love you,

I love you,

I LOVE YOU.

我不屑

现在的小孩到底在想什么？

如果要把他们的情史编成一本纪录的话，
一定比HarryPotter还要厚更多倍。

对他们来说，
爱，
是什么？
就是，
哦，
我对你有感觉了＝我爱你了。

顶！

第一个月，超甜蜜；
第二个月，开始吵架，
第三个月，玩完了。

所以基本上，
恋情只能维持至三个月。
堪称＂速食恋情＂。

WALAO～～～
然后hor，
他们还有分－蛮喜欢的、玩玩一下的、认真的。
谈一个恋爱都要分这样多种!

这样的话，
我嘛不是很老土了咯？

不知道怎样讲啦...
总之对我而言，
爱情不是儿戏、
更不是来填补心灵空虚的寄托。

我不屑，
这些小孩，
把爱情当成什么了？

爱上同性的恐惧

这会是我的错吗？

我不知道，
自己无形中影响别人。

朋友说，
她怕。
她怕她身边的朋友一个一个变成同志，
一个一个变得和我一样，
一个一个变成T。

对不起，
如果我造成你们的恐惧。

我知道，
要真正接受，
对你们来说，
很难。

我不强求什么，
只要起码的尊重就可以了。

朋友，
其实是基因决定我们爱上同性的。
我没办法选择。

Me & ME

This was me during HIGH SCHOOL.

(I know its shock, dun forget to breath k??)

I

I
I

I
I
I
I
I
I
I
V

And NOW...

(dun ask me what was i doing in this pic, keep it urself will do XD~)

All college mate looked at the 1st pic in awe,
They said baby probably went blind that time,
SO YONG SUI also like...

They said I was ugly,
UGLY~~~~~~!!!!!
A very very VERY HUGE DIFFERENCE!!!

I also can't believe it myself,
gosh,
I looked like a MORON.

KLCC历险记

昨天，
after college我们就去KLCC。

历尽了千辛万苦，
爬山涉水，
跨越重重苦难，
才到达那两条玉米...

1st,
lily就驾着她的waja去到gombak的lrt站，
绕了几十圈竟然一个carpark都没有！
ok咯，
问了那个人，
付了RM3，
park来park去park到像鬼酱，
才刚刚park好，
前面又有一个更美的位置，
lily又跑去park那边。
结果，
花了15分钟park车。

去到那边，
那个LRT竟然takde elektrik!
需要 1 jam servis，
还要我们naik teksi～

喂！
我们这么辛苦才找到parking，
你竟然、竟然告诉我，
LRT不能走！？？！！

经过商量，
我们决定驾车去。
一路都很顺利，
怎知道，
到了要弯左进KLCC的lane的时候，
lily竟然弯去右边！
还是traffic junction噎！
to the left, to the left～
她却听成to the right, to the right！！
很好！左边有很够多车！
然后她就把车头转去left lane，
但是车尾却在right lane！！！
ok,
trafiic light亮青了，
我们就想要那样suuuuut过去left lane，
WALAO～～～～
Lorry咧！
幸好lily比了比手势，
它让我们过了...
真是惊险万分～

终于进到了carpark，
哇，
好多parking啊～
我们好像越来越变态了！
是这样的，
因为我们的前面有个位，
后面又有几个位，
lily把车头park进前面的位后，
不懂是谁（好像是我 XD），
叫她park去后面，
就直直地倒退就行了～
倒退后，
车身好像歪了一点，
就adjust adjust一下，
then hor,
不懂做么，
lily又驾到前面去，
顶！
又前又后又前！
最后才settle down...
SWEAT～～～～～～～

到了KLCC，
我和cheryl去买movie ticket，
就去吃午餐。
怎知道，
cheryl竟然骗bro讲没有戏票了，
看到酱，
我也爽爽加入咯～
骗了2个小时，
要到时间进场了，
cheryl骗说要去买popcorn，
弥补以下不能看电影的遗憾。
我bro竟然还单纯到信她！
到了cinema，
我们就叫bro,
＂喂，siew fang，进去了咯～＂
她整个人就冷掉！

KLCC历险记。
回来后，
整个人就累翻了...
一天经历那么多东西，
真的有够难负荷！

毕。

Got sick

I fall sick again.
Maybe i'd been walking under the sun so exposedly around these few days.
My throat started to feel uneasy since Wed,
finally had a fever last nite but got better this morning.
Now I am having a serious flu.
D-A-M-N!

At last Hong Hong came back to college,
she kena dunno somewhat of a disease,
i dunno what to call in english -- 手足口症,
she got slimmer and dyed her hair too,
looks more yeng ady lu bro~~~~~

A-L-E-V-E-L

Time flies,

I wonder how people changed.

I know i have to grow up someday,
I dun wanna be the Daddy's kid for the whole lifetime.
So i am starting to work hard,
to prove my achievements to him next time.

Wonder how am i gonna do it???

My busy life kinda started.
I have to arrange my schedule,
for social, studies, family and love.

A-level is killing me silently...

*Fun cheongs,
I forgive you this time.
I look like so small gas one meh???

No mar~~~~~

But i'll still punish you~~~~~

kaka XD

Fun cheong raped me

I just got raped by
1,2,3,4,5 person in a fun cheong's room.

ALL FUN CHEONGs!!!!!

that lala fun cheong open my jacket!!!!!!!!!!!
And that K-fun cheong unzipped it!!!!!

I wanna say one word: FUCK!

I'll take back my revenge one day,
I SWEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'll unlock someone's bra one day...
Let's see who will be next victim.

Thank you and greet you a very Fucking happy day.

SOXXX!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fun cheong rocks!!!
But i tell you,
I lagi rock!!!!!!!!!

-HR-

H + R = Love

Bii texted me this minutes ago.

I love this!!!!!

-HR-

他不在了

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/tobe1127/8513347


突然一声不响地走了...

让还在世上的爱人为他哭泣...

人生无常，
我们往往不能决定身边的人何时离开。
所以人就应该把每一天，
当着是自己生命里最后的日子来珍惜。

他不在了，
她现在还好吗？

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/tobe1127&category_id=6138680

（这是她的post archieve， 记载在他走之后的心情折磨。）

*现在我整个人就是哭到不行。老婆，
我发誓我再也不会再乱乱发脾气了，
我们要好好珍惜彼此，
好吗？

小伙子

小伙子，

下一世请来当我儿子，

拜托～

老豆我在等你～

蔡旻佑 – 寂寞, 好了

蔡旻佑 – 寂寞, 好了

拼命的上网 闷坏的胸口让我
想大声的呐喊
我努力不放 你冷淡 你让分手就这样
我连做梦也感觉受伤
一年过了 还是一天 计算着慌张
计程车上的音响 我们最爱的情歌
这一刻却重重击破思念的心脏

夜深了我怎麽办 寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂 想她 念她 恨她
一个人你害怕吗 细数过满天星光
说好永远不分开 多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀飞翔
心放空了 寂寞好了

坚强外表下 我脆弱 情人节开始失常
别人庆祝我却很失落
秋天过了 冬天漫长 欢愉而感伤
我们天真的勇敢 我们追求的梦想
舍不得也只能收藏旅行的时光

寂寞感冒全都可以好的
爱多甜 伤多痛 都释放

Good Morning~~

Goood Morning~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!

1st time in my life wake up so early!!!!

I just don't give a damn

I just don't give a damn.

I hate this feeling.

To : Mrs.Chua

~Baby come back to me,
I'll be everything you need. ~

Come back please, Mrs.Chua~~~~~~~~

Mr.Chua needs YOU!!!

You said ME + YOU = LOVE
But ME + ??? = ????!!??

COME BACK ARH~~~~!!!!