爱的觉悟

昨天我心碎的声音你听见了吗？

真的很pek cek～
不能接受，
整个晚上都在发疯。
躺在床上，
心情怎么都平伏不下来。


华文学会室、
咬到流血？？！！？？！！
几乎要崩溃了......

今天一早醒来，
不懂做么，
坐在马桶上，
自己跟自己说起话来。

"Just cut it off.
Its no big deal.
What is done cannot be undone.
They were still kids when they did it.
Be open-hearted and accept this.
That was her.
Everyone has a past.
She is what she is,
And now,
you're the one who she cares the most.
Although its frustrating enough,
how i wish i were a guy,
that i cannot completely own her
for the rest of my life,
but there are no regrets from now on.
She told you that herself,
you've been told by HERSELF,
not anyone else,
that means she doesn't care anymore.
I love her,
she loves me,
and this is what that matters."

冲了凉，
跑去看圣经。
突然释怀了许多。
"Love is forgiveness, compassion and acceptance.
When the times Peter betrayed Lord Jesus,
causing every misery and sorrowness.
But Lord Jesus never hated him,
but thanked him,
and continue to love him. "

"Love and Lust exist.
Lust is a desire,
but it would blind our eyes,
mislead us to dark phases，
and lost our souls to demons.
Love is a desire,
but a pure affection of hopes and happiness,
a door to seek true passion,
and a significance of God interest. "

上帝要我们在爱和欲望两者选择其一，
要我们明白,
爱是宽恕、包容、原谅及接受。
现在真的明白了许多。
人类不能抹掉过去，
但它可以用爱去清洗。

我竟然因为自己的私欲，
造成心中燃起了嫉妒与憎恨的焰火，
真是愚蠢至极！！！
我不是神，
就算有多宽容，
它还是有个极限。
但我竟然可以无知到那个地步～

我真的不知道为什么我会不能接受。
但我知道如果再这样下去，
根本解决不了我心中的烦恼。
我选择敞开心怀，
放下成见。

有点吓倒，
原来我真的真的真的很在乎她。
不是说中毒不中毒，
是真的很在乎她。
跟她在一起，
其实真的有很多东西受到限制。
但现在我只求她在我身边就够了。
互相扶持、
互相学习、
互相照顾、
互相陪伴、
互相疼爱，
也就够了。

爱其实很单纯，
真的不懂为什么很多人要把它复杂化。

很多人也许搞不懂我到底是个佛教徒还是基督徒，
我是个佛教徒啦。
但我觉得每个宗教都有它值得学习的地方。
谢谢它们让我觉悟很多道理。

WALAO～
咬到流血？
你很猛、
很激情一下hor？！！
果然真的很HOT～
哈哈^^

宝贝，
对不起，
这几天让你难做了。
我答应你我不会再酱幼稚了。
*拥抱＋ing*