A normal youngster

I just wanna be a normal youngster.

I dye my hair,
I stay up until late night,
I go makan with my friends,
I sms with all my fun cheong friends,
is there a problem???

For normal youngsters like anybody else:
No.
For abnormal yougster like MYSELF:
YES!!!!!!!

I started to officially own a handphone this year.
All those years in high school,
my mum had forbidded me to use handphone.
My mum forbids me to dye my hair not until i'm 21,
and I went and dye it,
she was like i am doing something illegal.
I sms with my friends,
and she sees it,
she thinks i am being over-sociable with my friends,
i stay up till late nights,
she suspects me up to something.
I goes out with my friends,
she doesn't like it.
And yea,
my mum and dad analyse and filter my friends for me,
and hell,
I AM FED UP WITH ALL THESE NUTS!!!!

Do they know why i keep behaving like this?
If i have been given the freedom,
then i need not to fight so hard to get it!!!
If i have been given the freedom,
maybe i am not interested to going out anymore!!!
If i have been given the freedom,
i need not to curi-curi do things behind your backs!!!

Sometimes,
my friends have opinions with my behaviour,
but i am sorry to tell you,
you say thus,
its because you are not their child.
You never know what's to be like a cage bird.

I dun steal,
I dun rob,
i dun have drugs,
i dun eat pills,
i dun join gangsters,
i am not intersted in sexual activities,
i dun go pubs,
i never go out late,
i just sms my friends,
i just dye my hair,
i just buy new clothes,
i just stay up late...

Do you want us to be abnormal children?
Yea,
i'm already abnormal,
i am a homosexual,
i like girls.
And can you see what happen to Yang??
Yea,
he is an ultimate obedient boy,
but he is having a very big gap with his peers,
he often boycotted by his friends,
he is so unconfident to himself,
even when he is eager to change,
he is afraid of other people's opinions,
he speaks so softly until i can't hear him,
he tries to grow up,
but you guys still treat him as a baby...
Can't you see it??

I really dun understand,
you always say that we both are different from our friends,
do you know the other meaning of "different"?
its - ABNORMAL.

Sometimes its not that i dun wanna tell you guys,
or report to you guys what i am up to,
its just very tiring to explain to you,
after that you'll ask dozen of questions,
or you'll think in the other way,
or even worse you'll criticise and stab me.
So i just wanna save all these troubles...

I know you won't understand all these,
cuz you always use the same traditional way to educate us,
you always compare our era with your old times.
When i need more money,
you guys would say,
"Do you know last time i only had 5 bucks to fill for a day?"
When i request to go out with my friends,
"Your grandma would scold me until dead if i went back home after 10pm."
Please,
please stop using your generation excuses
and want us to follow whatever you guys have been through.
You say yourself that,
you'll rather die than seeing us suffer,
but all these times you keep telling us,
"Do you know you children are very lucky? Last time we..."
"Your life is so comfortable until you dunno how to appreciate things..."
"Do you know we used to work until late nights?"
HEY!!!!!!!
What is the point you are telling us these??

You want us to be comfortable,
and yet you keep bubbling about all these "once upon the time~"!!!
You want us to be independent,
and yet you are reluctant to let us go!!!

Can you just stop????????????
I know you love us,
but please tell us,
what do you want us to do???

I just wanna be a normal youngster.
hang out with my frineds,
go makan with people...
I sms with my friends,
MSN with people,
I just wanna do things whenever i want,
i sleep during day,
work at night,
is that a problem at all???
NO!!!
But you are seeing this as a huge problem,
you suspect i'm up to something...
When i am working hard,
you just ignore it,
when i am lazy or having rest,
you'll just magnify my mistakes!!!

I'm really depressed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
There have been years i ever complaint about you guys,
I am not dare to complain anymore,
cuz i know you guys love me more than anything,
but this is OVER!!!!!
I dun have any freedom when all my peers does...

Please!!!!!!!!!
I'm really depressed!!!!!
I just wanna be a normal youngster!!!